choose happiness.

" you never know just how you look

through someone else's eyes. "

I'm back on my alone kick.  I get like that every once in a while.  Just needing to disassociate myself with the human race.  Spend time with me.  The dog.  Reading.  Playing.  Thinking.  Just being.

But really thinking.  About my life as of late.

You spend your whole childhood with manners beaten into your head.  Sit up straight.  Speak in a quiet tone.  Don't talk back.  Graciousness.  Kindness.  Integrity.  These rules were gold and you were golden. 

 

But when does it end?  When do you cross that line and become the adult.  Your manners disappear.  Your energy becomes focused around judging the actions of others.  The happiness of life and living becomes shadowed by your insistent need to be right, to be heard, to judge.

I can see this happening in myself.  I judge others who judge me.  I judge them for thinking that I'm not living my life the way I should.  I judge them for how they talk to me.  I judge them simply because I know no other reaction.

But I don't judge them for the choices they make.  Other than their choice to judge me.

Everyone has a choice.  You can choose to be happy, or you can choose to judge and live a life of discontent.  I could feel myself slipping the past few weeks.  Into a pattern of judging.  Into a life of being unhappy with how people were looking at me.  But personal reflection has only secured in myself the fact that I'm doing the best I can.  I'm spending time with those I love.  I'm discovering new adventures.  I'm learning more than I ever have.

 

I choose happiness over a life of feeling like I will never meet the expectations of others.

So go ahead and judge the choices I make.  How I spend my time.  What I'm doing with my life.  I'm only worried about you.  The more you judge, the less content you'll be.

Everyone has a choice.  What's yours?

Comments

[Katy Mary]

I love this Nicole. I choose happiness too.

[Blair @ Wild & Precious]

nicole -- love this!